i really want to ....

its been a long time since so many things happened at the same time,
and only to know tt u are nv there.

the long calls we used to have,
no longer there,
sometimes it wld just last for 30secs.
how could it ever happened??????
the emo-ing, happiness..
no more.
and u even had to say tt.
thanks alot,
it REALLY DID HELP.
sense the darn sacarsm?
sucks.
staring into my fone at times,
for no reason,
waiting. waiting and waiting.
sometimes i ask myself,
why should i even WAIT?
since he doesnt even know how i feels.
retarded.
like, i treat him like a real brother.
and for those who gets the super wrong idea,
im sorry.
i dont like him.



thanks a lot sharon..
eating like so much chocs really did help in my mood.
and, uh oh. im sick now , AGAIN.
and, there's like, no one there???????????
argh,
nvmmmm.
im sorry.
super emo kinda mood..



clara,
my dear.. u know what, no matter what, ill still be here, the 2 of us can just rot away time. and stare into space every morning each thinking of our own stuffs. sometimes i wonder. why are guys like this? =( im really........lost for words.. things which others have said, some hurtful, some encouraging, i really hope the 2 of us can go through this tgt. we shall nv leave each other please.. dont leave me alone too...... i love my clara <33







super emo mood.
i feel like typing a super long email, msg or whatever to you... but seeing u so happy, i wldnt bear to hurt you.. with all the hurting stuffx i intend to say.. im sorry..
things uve done,
things uve said,
has hurt me deeply.
i myself, do not know what to do...=(
ill continue to pray tt ull be happy =)



broke down alreadi....
lost in the confusion state...